Isn't the title contradictory? Sound of silence means nothing, not a single noise. Yet sound itself means there's music or noise. It's nice though. I like the title... In case anybody is wondering, this is not really meant to be read. I just feel like typing it out. Friday night always gives me the blues. Be thankful, people, for I am willing to spend time for blogging. Hopefully, people will appreciate my effort.

School's started for three weeks now. I guess I'm alright with it basically. All of the things, I tend to dislike the amount of homework. Basically, I'm ploughing through all my work every single day. Which explains why I'm constantly online, because of my low intellectual quotient that does not aid me when I'm doing something as abstract as researching for nationalism. I wasn't kidding. For some reason, my mind does not relate such research as homework. Thus, the later part of the work was left undone. Thankfully, there was no punishment. I'd blame my mind for making me worry, but its a nice brain. At least, it makes me a visual learner.

One thing about blogging I hate is mainly the things people write about. Some people choose to write their life, some, on their feelings or whatsoever. Mainly, my blog is more or less for me to design a skin. I'm serious. You notice that my posts are never consistent and I do not pour out my feelings or blood or soul onto a single piece of post. I trust that no one actually read all my posts, but anyway, that's how my blog is like. Its supposedly devoid of life. But it actually really records the changes in me. Because of CAP matters, I was looking through my posts for potential articles to add on to my collection. Apparently, a few years back, my posts were more or less... interactive. That doesn't matter much to me now I suppose... A few years later, you'll just see another transformation. I'm awaiting that day. Then I'll have a sense of de ja vu probably.

This year will be a long year. I haven't quit my cca... but I'm learning aikido now. Hm, I supposed I'm a bit surprised to see Jaclyn wanting to learn that too. Or maybe she learnt it already. I'll just ask her. Back to the topic, I've kind of decided to do CAP: Creative Arts Programme. I have no idea why, even now, I'm trying to convince myself not to take part. I think my mind has learnt to shut off any message from me. It has a mind of its own... it no longer belongs to me. Alright... I'm also wanting to take part it digital competitions this year. Over the holidays, I think I've become more or less, an addict on photoshop. So hopefully, I can win prizes. I'm serious...

A new song for my friends... or friend. I really hope that she can perk up... I'm sorry. I've been busy and neglecting everything around me. My new partner is making me feel bad. Mainly cause I feel like I'm acting too much. So, for me and for the rest, this should somehow make things clearer:

Silencing
It takes years to feel
to melt that hatred you see
you planted the seed and let it grow
For that flower to bloom
A thousand years has flown

Let the whispers lead you through
The darkest ages
where light converges
and formed the sequence of time

Let the streams of energy dance
Through the world's end
Where sun meets moon
and reveal the brillance behind songs

A tear, shed from the pain
loving to you, I see nothing more
For you, the rainbow lights
and freedom is never true

Show, the abyss you formed
while hiding from this
I heard your pleas, I left you there
For you, I watch those days
passing by was never easy

Forgive me, then and there
I was never the strong one you see
I had to leave, to abadon my hopes
Faded dreams, shattered memories

That was once me, the painful memories
I wanted to forget, to know nothing more
And they haunt, for me to know
my decision was never simple

Escaped, torn, surviving on instinct
The last few pages of the chapter
remains unwritten
The ink flows, along with the lights
for the spherical cycle

where I had been tried

Okay... quite bad. I'm sorry. I wasn't in the clearest state of mind. Really... I really want to aplogise. To all those whom I've hurt. S, F, T, U... all of you, I'm sorry. I couldn't be the one you wanted me to. I had to back down, to be a coward... This was me in the first place, an apprentice of darkness, wishing to hide in the dark curtains till eternity ends. Okay, I'll end this post. Ciao~