well...to be more precise, it was a cat outside the house. when i got home, the cat was sitting comfortable...or maybe not sitting. more like lying perfectly still on my well cushioned seat outside my door. (we had no place to put it at home ya?) i was like -.-" theres a cat outside the house?! should have seen the expression on my face just now. look of disbelievable mixed with a sort of questioning look. *...i doubt so. stop lying* it seemed like that case... anyway, that cat was staring at me while i opened the look. apparently, i was disturbing its sleep just by opening the lock of my door. its my house!!! and that seat is mine!!! why does that cat has to do that?! ahh...anyway, it is a cat...so i shouldn't be angry with it... *thats the right attitude...you're improving* yea...thanks. even though i kind of dislike that cat outside, i couldn't help but keep looking for it =/ thats my personality i guessed...*for animals. maybe. for humans. i prefer no.* agree...that's a nice way to put it =D *don't put that smiley...it shows emotion* ahh...you're right. anyway, the cat gone off now. i think it finds taunting me nice...lucky it didn't eat my fishy! phew... my guppies have survived the fate of being eaten alive by their known killer. *feeling the urge to write again huh...* umm..yea... feel like writing but don't think there's enough time is there? *you need rest after what you have been through...* aww...alright then. i won't write today. for my sake...and for your's too... back to topic. had a small dispute with my family. it all revolves around this com. >.< *what did i say...* no emotions! (nods eagerly) *and what did you do...* umm...put that >.< emotion? *don't do that again...i'm not going to stay around reminding you.* okay okay... rewind to an incident before meeting that cat. was on the lrt going back home. met a friend...or at least i think it was my friend. she was my kindergarden friend. also from glory. then at about p4, i met her in bp. surprise surpirse...she actually recognise me too! well...met her today la. didn't really look like her. slimmer, looks a bit different. but something tells me its her. i have a feeling its her. reminds me of friendship bond or something like that. haha. that actually brought me down the road of my memories...really looked real back. miss a lot... especially those fond days. those 6 years spent in bp. i shouldn't be brooding over it...but i'm just feeling reluctant again. leaving those days behind seems hard... its been 6 months and i'm still not able to forget. no...forget isn't the right word. i want to remember. maybe get over... just like get used to this current life and not think about the past. feel like i've gone forward alot. by alot really. i didn't stop to look back not once. maybe i shouldn't move forward that fast. haha. no...more like i should pause and look back. just sometime. and see what i have miss. theres alot i haven't really think about. they're fading...and i;m forgetting. so i should just pause...slow down, and look back. i really love all my memories...my life from a baby till now. its alot...alot of incidents happen. and they mainly revolve around me. i can't forget the smiles i used to have. i don't really smile now. don't wish to...it reveals too much. and it can be fake... laughter...my sweet sound of laughter could be lost... haha... i guess i'm making improvements after all. so i;m saying goodbye to my old life and moving onto my new one... should be alright... just look back once in a while. once...in...awhile. its rather kater for me now...wanna sleep. alright..i'm going off now. ciao peeps.